I guessed we both sensed that it had been dragging on for a while. I could have stayed. I wish I could stay. But the only reasons for me to stay were all selfish.
There are words that I’ve been saving, melodies that I’ve been holding back, since I’m afraid any of those could cut, could cause you more sleepless nights, could give you one more excuse to fall. That’s one of the very last things I want to witness.
I hope that you, having been not only familiar to and patient enough with all of the twisted mindset but also actually willing to accept it and be in it, would understand. I had never done anything that was not self-serving this past year. This was my trying to make it right, even for just this one time.